Blinded by His true essence.

"The Lord is near to the brokenhearted,
and saves the crushed in spirit." - Psalm 34:18

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I forgot the feeling,
Of Your pure love beating in my heart.

You got pushed away,
So far I could barely find You.

Doubt took over me-
And I began to feel so hopeless,

For I used to know you so well.
Mortal possessions and experiences truly got in the way,

Creating cobwebs to grow,
And hide You.

I've never felt so lost, so alone,
So desperate to seek for Your love.

Yet all along,
You have been there in my heart,

Waiting.
Waiting for me to reach out.

You put obstacles in my life for me to conquer,
Or for me to fall upon and hurt.

Not being around the things that used to support me,
Made me realize that it tested my grasp on You.

To see if I could hold onto Your love,
And keep it in my heart.

To spread it,
Make it contagious.

I thought I lost You,
But now I found You.

You were there the whole time.

Waiting.
Just waiting for me to reach out.

I guess the saying is sometimes true,
"Out of sight, out of mind."

I was blinded,
Even with your true essence,

Being everywhere.
Your beauty flows,

Your love swarms.
Now I see You again.

This love is rekindled,
A love that means to me the most.

An inner relationship between me and You.
Above all religion, above all of the world, above to You.

I know you are there.
Always waiting,

Waiting for me to simply reach out.