Summer Cold.

Settling in.

I can finally feel the anxiety slowly but surely lifting off my shoulders. Orientation is now over and I had my first day of school today; I must say, it was amazing. I have never felt so joyous and anxious about wanting to learn and strive to do my ultimate best. Also, my classes are everything I could ask for. I am so ready to take on this new journey in life and give it my all.

I must say though, I AM BEAT.

Foreign.

I am in a foreign place that I call home by myself for the first time. This is strange. I don't even think I can describe what I'm feeling right now because there are so many positives and negatives running through my mind. All I know is that I will be okay.

I used to.

I used to never blog, but now I am blogging all the time lately. Strange.

Anywho, I MOVE IN INTO MY DORM TOMORROW. I'm so amped. Today was long and productive. While being productive, I was thinking...a lot, about certain things. I wish I could say what I was thinking about buuuuut that wouldn't be too good. I have to keep some things a mystery :)

First Afternoon/Evening in Portland, Oregon...

...was amazing. After arriving in Portland around 3 in the afternoon, my parents and I went to my favorite Italian restaurant on NW 23rd street. Then we cruised downtown, enjoyed the warm weather, and wandered the urban streets. Today was pretty successful and I am very happy.

I don't feel so overwhelmed anymore.
Day two is coming up...hopefully it is as great as today.


***Leaving your comfort zone gives you brand new eyes***
Nighty night.

PS: I miss my friends.

Farewell California.

The counting is over, and the time has come.

One of my personal favorites.

August 21, 2010

THREE DAYS.


I am overwhelmed with so many emotions.
Happiness
Excitement
Nervousness
Fear
Joy
Love...I love love.

The list could go on...

Change is good, yet can be petrifying. In the end though, it will result in something that is truly beneficial to life. It's late and I'm rambling and jumping from subject to subject. Probably because I'm...overwhelmed! Goodness. Time passes too quickly.
I like getting to know people and building friendships...its quite lovely and this song below is lovely as well.
...I need sleep. Goodnight!

7 Days.

ONE WEEK!...until I leave.

August 15, 2010

I haven't really "blogged" before besides writing poems and posting some good songs every now and then, so I guess I will start tonight.

Its 2 AM and I can't sleep. Today was long, good, and bad...a roller coaster I guess you can say. As my departure date for Portland keeps getting closer and closer, each day seems to be slipping by into thin air leaving me on edge. I do not know what to do with my last days here in this town I call home. Of course I will spend quality time with my family, friends, and peers, but I feel like I need to do so much more. It is as if I am in a dead zone, and there is nothing I can do because time is blinding me.

Time. 9 days now. Time and I haven't been getting along too well. Now I seem to understand when someone much older than me says "time passes quicker as you grow older" because it really does and it is quite frightening. But that is a part of life, and I am learning to cope with it. I have learned a lot these past few weeks and one word seems to surround each lesson: inevitable.

So much is on my mind; I am very overwhelmed and confused. I keep catching myself dazing off thinking about things that sadden me, and I blame my subconscious and fate for that. But I remind myself that the light is at the end of the tunnel, and I my future is very bright.

I have been living in the moment these past few months, and now it is time for me to not only live in the moment, but also live in the future. Prioritize and prepare- I will be experiencing a life changing experience in a matter of days.

I guess I should get some rest now, it is late.

Things I learned or relearned today:
-Always be the bigger person in every situation
-Anger doesn't solve problems
-Surround yourself by people that make you happy and love you dearly
-You can't please everyone (I have a hard time dealing with this one)
-Kindness is essential

Goodnight.

10.

Ten days.
Ten days days until I leave.
Until I branch out of the light, and into the dark,
Where I will discover indescribable things, such wonderful things.
Where I will fall, hurt, and suffer.
Yet I will learn.

Ten days.
Ten days until I leave.
Until I have to say farewell to many loved ones, friends, and others.
Where I leave my state, my city, my home.
Where I will adjust to an unknown place.
Yet an unknown place I will call home.

Ten days.

Sunday Sunday Sunday.

Soul Shaker.

Jammin?

PS: Its my birthday.

The pit.

I see you,
Right through your eyes,
Into the pit of your heart, the pit of soul.
I see you.