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“The most important thing in life is to learn how to give out love, and to let it come in.”
-Morrie Schwartz

“For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart. It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul.”
-Judy Garland

The clock is ticking late into the night.

The clock is ticking late into the night,
It is ten past two.
I’m sitting here alone,
And I am missing you.

You are peacefully sleeping.
Your mind is far away dreaming.

I am anxious to sleep,
For that is when I see your delicate face.

In my dreams of distortion and fantasy,
I know I am complete.
You are near me,
And my heart starts to replete.

Happiness.

Until I wake up and the sun warms my skin,
I lay there alone,
And the joy in my heart instantly grows thin.

3 more weeks.

Such a strange feeling I now feel inside.

Merry Christmas.

&& Happy Birthday Jesus. I am so blessed to have such a beautiful, healthy, and loving family and such wonderful friends and boyfriend. This was a interesting year with its many difficulties and successes. I am more than ready to begin 2011. Happy holidays...spread the love and happiness. xoxoxox.

Day by day.

Such a simple, delicate love.
Such a complex, inevitable world.

Constant love overcomes difficulties, day by day.

I miss you.

Days.

3 days until Christmas.
7 days since we've been apart.

So many mixed emotions I feel right now.
So much joy and love, yet so much emptiness and wretchedness.

How do I handle such opposites,
That are trying to intertwine in my heart.
They try, then give up, because there is no relation between them.
No connection.

My heart feels heavy.
Days are passing, and I continue on.

11 Days.

Ti'll Christmas!

Final project for my painting class. Santa mug :)
Day 2(Finished):


Day 1:

Beauty.

Loving.

The new KOL.

Oh...

...hey happiness.

-God is good.
-My family is everything.
-My best friends are my sisters.
-My boyfriend is indescribable.

I am happy. I love life.

Blinded by His true essence.

"The Lord is near to the brokenhearted,
and saves the crushed in spirit." - Psalm 34:18

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I forgot the feeling,
Of Your pure love beating in my heart.

You got pushed away,
So far I could barely find You.

Doubt took over me-
And I began to feel so hopeless,

For I used to know you so well.
Mortal possessions and experiences truly got in the way,

Creating cobwebs to grow,
And hide You.

I've never felt so lost, so alone,
So desperate to seek for Your love.

Yet all along,
You have been there in my heart,

Waiting.
Waiting for me to reach out.

You put obstacles in my life for me to conquer,
Or for me to fall upon and hurt.

Not being around the things that used to support me,
Made me realize that it tested my grasp on You.

To see if I could hold onto Your love,
And keep it in my heart.

To spread it,
Make it contagious.

I thought I lost You,
But now I found You.

You were there the whole time.

Waiting.
Just waiting for me to reach out.

I guess the saying is sometimes true,
"Out of sight, out of mind."

I was blinded,
Even with your true essence,

Being everywhere.
Your beauty flows,

Your love swarms.
Now I see You again.

This love is rekindled,
A love that means to me the most.

An inner relationship between me and You.
Above all religion, above all of the world, above to You.

I know you are there.
Always waiting,

Waiting for me to simply reach out.

December 4th, 2010.

I can't take my eyes off you.